Fighting Reality

Today I became really aware of  how I superimpose what I want over what is really happening in front of me in real life and how strong a pattern it is. When I look at this more closely, I see there is no sense to this - it takes unnecessary energy and doesn't change what is happening in reality.

And all of this is because I have an agenda - about most events in my life, some more obvious than others.

So the skill for me is to track not only what I feel in my body, emotions, vitality, etc. in the present but also my conditioning, judgments and agendas that I have and how they do not serve me. And then decide to choose again, differently in how I am in the world.